abalonepearl

 Heyo, would you look at that? It's been awhile since my last entry.

Updates are in order: since my last post, I've graduated high school and been accepted with a counselor! My excitement is tentative, but man am I grateful to have a professional brain person to spew my brain stuff to. Spew is a touch too violent. Spill, maybe? Bit less gross. 

Anyhow, I truly am grateful for that. It was a difficult process to finally come to, but I'm super grateful because I've got some stuff that I really don't know how to handle on my own. I think it'll be really beneficial to get started working through that before and during the beginning of university. Thankfully, my uni is only about an hour from my home town, so I'd be able to drive back home for appointments or do phone consultations, which is nice. (Have I used the word 'really' enough yet?)

I've turned 18 as well! Weird. Legal adulthood. 

And, a week from today, I'll be in Montréal! June ended up being kind of travel-heavy, as I'll be away from home for 18 of its 30 days. That's a huge blessing! I'm so excited to have the opportunity to volunteer in Québec and to get to know such an awesome, multi-cultural place. 

Things are mostly good. Trying to prepare myself for counseling/therapy/whatever the heck you should call it. Enjoying the sunshine and the pretty plants!

I just went through the list of therapists accepted by my insurance (for the second time; the first list was the one I went through right before we changed insurance providers).

I might have found a therapist! She meets all of my mama's requirements (as well as my own) and I have a good feeling about her. And her practice is within 10 or 15 minutes of my house (really close to school, even though I'm graduating in less than a month, eep). I'm so glad about that. 

It's a start. A positive one. I'm so grateful. 

And as a post script, I have been treating my body pretty well these last two weeks. Two weeks does not a lifestyle change make, but still--it's more progress than I've made in a long time. I'm proud (though quietly, as it's not something I really want to discuss with people in person just yet). 

 My soul is unquiet today.